Goals

I have been thinking a lot lately and here is what I needed to do:

- SAVE MONEY!!  I need to buy a house.  I did some calculations and I can still make the goal of purchasing for 30 birthday present but I need to stay on track and focused.
Goal: Transfer 75% of paycheck to savings account (the one that I cannot access with ATM or online and have to be in the bank to withdraw from.  Love my credit union for having these options. :) )

- LOSE WEIGHT I am unhappy with my looks and only I have control over it.  It is time to shape up. Starting with small goals (again) and working out 3x a week. No more Dr Pepper (WORST PART EVER!!) and taking lunch to work.
Goal:  Lose 20lbs by July 4th.

- GET ORGANIZED I have so many projects half completed and unidentified boxes around that I need to determine what I have, need, and should get rid of.  Maybe have a garage sale and help build up the house fund.
Goal: Go through 1 box a week.

- BLOG MORE  When I used to write at work, I found myself more relaxed and happier.  While I am unable to blog at work (TOO BUSY!!) I still have options from my cell phone and at home.
Goal: Blog at least every Saturday morning.

My oh My...

how times flies!!!  I cannot even remember last time I posted and I know a million things have happened.  Things like a new baby niece!!  Madison Marie was born on October 1th 2011!!

Here are a few interesting facts:
-middle name Marie is named after me.  Yes I am that special. :)
-I am 26 1/2 years older than this child.
-she hates me. I babysat for a few hours when Lexy & Chris' work scheduled over lapped.  She was bawling the entire time.  Come to find out she had an ear infection but ever since that day, I cannot look and hold her at the same time.  She will start to bawl!!
-I am the only one who really calls her Maddie.
-Her initials are mmm.  Yes MMM! 

What else has happened?  I have failed my ideas already.  They were good while they lasted but I have thrown them out the window. 

School is gonig along.  I really enjoy my English class because the professor is REALLY liberal but it is fun.

Caitlyn and Jana are pregant.  Caitlyn is due in the summer and I think she is going ot have a girl.  Jana is due in November(?) and I think she will have a boy.

I am planning my company's non-company sponsored summer employee picnic.  It is still 6 months away but I feel the time just ticking away!!  There is SO much to do and so little time!!

When I logged in to blog, I had a million things to say and now I don't.

So far...

it hasn't been a good 2012 and we are only on day 2.  Saturday night was so-so.  I went to a small gathering and had an ok time.  What made Saturday suck was being pulled over by State trooper for running a red light.  Yep. I have avoided being pulled over for nearly 10 years and here it is.  I have been telling others that 2012 will be better than 2011.  But the stop did happen in 2011 so it is just my own attitude that sucked.  Looking on the positive side, at least I can say that the stop happened last year! 

Sunday wasn't as nice as I would like because my Seahawks lost.  Yes we ended the season 7-9...a losing season. There was a chance we could have pulled out a win but we fizzled.  The positive to Sunday as a great meal topped with a cookie dough blizzard.  yummy!!

But with the New Year, attention shifts to resolutions.  UGH!! Instead of setting a resolution I will ultimately break (like losing weight) I have decided that I am I just going to focus on ideas.  There will be no goal line...or no real accomplishment to be made.  My ideas are just things I need to think on and will put some effort into making the ideas happen.

Idea 1:  blog more. 
Yep.  That is right.  Spend more time on the internet and hope I do not get distracted by Facebook.  While Facebook is fun and sometimes helpful, it distracts me from my real purpose.  To learn more and blog more.  Even thought my following is few, I would still like everyone to know what I am up to.  Plus when I blog, I vent all the emotions I keep bottled inside and then I feel better.  For my overall health, I need to vent emotions more and bottle them less. 

Idea 2: be selfish.
I have decided to be more selfish.  I am always doing stuff for others and take care of myself as an after thought.  I rarely say no and then bottle my annoyance because I am doing something I don't want too. 

Idea 3: ORGANIZE
UGH!! The worst of them all but probably the most necessary.  The up coming year will be busy.  Work, school, politics (tis an elecation year) and possibly a business.  I need to stay on top of everything so the major things don't fall through the cracks.  I need to get a desk in order so bills and important docs are just strung helter skelter over my room.  I need to get an planner to keep test/due dates highlighted and on my radar.

Idea 4: limit shopping
This is for a couple of purposes.  By limiting my shopping, I will save for my house faster.  I will have more room in my cloest. I will have more time for school/work/politics because I will be home more. I also need to purge my current wardrobe.  I have a full closet, and 2 dressers that are unable to contain all I have.  To be fair, I wear two seats of clothes a day.  My work clothes and the jeans and tshirt I change into for home.  That doesn't include the gym clothes I use a couple of days a week or my PJs.

300!!!

When I think 300 I think.....

 of Gerard Buttler

(another of my Misters)

but my second thought is this is my 300th post.  A milestone I would say.

How fitting that this milestone is about another milestone?

I have gone back to school.  It is official.

I am a freshman at the College of Western Idaho.

I am enrolled in just two courses: English 101 and Math 025/Algebra.

English I am not liking so much right now but math I actually love.

The math teacher is kinda stupid which means I get to learn at my own pace with the materials online.

English kinda sucks because it is an online course which is harder than I thought.  Because it takes forever to get clarification on a instructions (like word count) or a question.  But it is nice because I can do it quickly or slow.  It was really intimidating thinking,planning, applying, enrolling, PAYING, and actually going to class.  I feel like such an old fart.  I als think it is funny that 10 years ago at this time, I started my senior year of high school.  Kinda weird dontcha think?  I do.  But it is an adventure and I am not the oldest person in the class, thank heavens!  But that is my news.  Think it was worth of the 300 post?

Meet my Mister (ok...my fantasy mister)...

No words to describe that night.  I am in love. 

Randomness...

So there has been things that have happened since the last time I posted.  In the interested of time and your attention span, I will just provide snippets of what is happening:

-Idaho Sen McGee got drunk and stole a car.  Mom created controversy.  There is another meeting on Tuesday and I am sure more controversy will happen.  Can't wait.  I don't like McGee.

-MICHAEL BUBLE CONCERT ON THURSDAY!!  FLOOR SEATS!!  SUPER-DE-DUPER EXCITED!!  I will be there a couple hours early even though it is assigned seat.  I am so so so excited so might as well be in my seat then trying to kill time getting there.

-I am still in love with the farmers market.  I have been trying new recipes and have been suprised at how successful I have been.

-Saw Joe Nichols in concert and feel in love.

-Going to see Eric Church in concert in a couple of weeks.

-School starts on Tuesday Aug 23rd.  Same day as Eric Church. Nothing important happens the first day right?

-There are days I wish I had my open place.  Especially at night when my room on the 3rd floor is still 85 degrees at 10pm.

weird..

Not sure where to begin.  I am in a funk.  I don't like funks.  A couple things put me in a funk.

1.  I didn't start class.  I really wanted to start classes this week.  But I am going to miss 2 classes because of going to Atlanta.  The English professor said the highest grade I could receive is a B.  Even if I earned a 100% on all class work just because I missed the 2nd class (instead of the approved 1), B is the best I could get. I am not going to pay money just to get a B. So slight dissapointment that I have to wait.  I am trying to stay positive by thinking "Good things come to those who wait".....which is a perfect segue..

2. Good things aren't happening....by good things I am talking a love life. Over the weekend, the majority of the family went to dinner (Thank you buy one get one free)...So what happens when you buy one but don't have a get one?  You get left out. Not intentionally...just happens.  It sucks. It really really sucks.  It is public humilition...I have waited and waited and waited.  While there have been little blips on the heart monitor, it has been pretty flatline for a long time. 

3. There are smaller reasons (work sucks, wish I had an SUV, etc).

I am trying to pull myself out of the funk.  It is hard to do.  So I will plug along and keep a just keep focus on Atlanta.  Which is coming up in less than a week!!  This time next Monday I will be in the eastern time zone. It will be work focused but still it is a place I have never been more and excited to see what can happen.

The End

After Ashton, we made it as far as Pocatello.  We spent the night in a hotel.  I was very concerned that TJ would mess in the room but thankfully that didn't happen.  We get up and head to Shoshone Falls.  TJ was ready to get out because right before we arrived at Shoshone, TJ went down to my feet and sat there.  WHILE WE WERE DRIVING!!  Silly dog.

Here is Shoshone Falls.  It is larger than Mesa Falls but we only had a $3 car fee here.

I originally had some more stops planed between Shoshone and home but I was tired and ready to be done with the car.  As we were driving through Bliss it was amazing how many wind turbines there are!!

Afte we were home for a few hours, it was off to a Memorial Day BBQ at Lexy's house.  It was a great weekend and never would have happened without the sacrifices of our military.  Because of many paid the ulitimate price, I live in a free country were I can travel without fear.  I can worship how I see fit. 

Words cannot express my feelings for our military so all I will say is

THANK YOU!!

Parade America

This is the float for Canyon County Republican Women/Canyon County Republicans.
Parade America is sponored by Exchange Club on held on Armed Forces Day each year. 

Theme:
America the Beautiful

Our float theme/banner:
Oh Beautiful for Heros..
who more than self their country loved
and mercy more than life.

Inspiritation:
Tomb of Unknown Soldier

The hours put into the float are too many to count but the pay off was great.
WE WON GRAND PRIZE!!
That is the 2nd year in a row for us.

The music was the 3rd verse, first chorus, and then Taps

The words were:
O beautiful for heroes proved

In liberating strife.
Who more than self their country loved
And mercy more than life!
America! America!

God shed his grace on thee
And crown thy good with brotherhood
From sea to shining sea!

It made me cry when it was all together with the soldier standing guard and Taps playing.

Just thinking about it makes me teary eyed so I am going to stop talking about it.  I think my feelings on the military are pretty clear.

Wild weekend..

What a day Saturday was.

I purchased a Bountiful Basket and had to pick it up at 7am!!  OUCHIEE!!  But I hauled my butt to the pick up location and was pleasantly suprised how quickly I was able to get in and out. Maybe 10 minutes.  This week, there were appx 10 apples, 3 artichokes, 2 mangos, 2 cuccumbers, 5 ears of corn, 1 pineapple, and 2 green peppers...and a cantelope and 2 heads of Roman lettuce.I was impressed.  Now I just have to use all the stuff.  I have surfered the internet for some recipes and I am pretty excited to try them.  Now I just need to find the time to actually try them.

Caribbean Fruity Salsa
Chicken Artichoke Dip
Chicken Pesto Pizza
Chicken Artichoke Heart and ParmesanSandwiches

With veggies in hand, I head over to Lexy's to go garage saling.  That was kinda bust.  After a couples hours of little success we head to the Farmers Market.  It has moved locations so it has more but it doesn't have the same feeling. 

Once we had walked through the market, it was time for babysit Marlee while Lexy and Chris attended a funeral.  Marlee and I went over to Emma's and played for a little bit.  Kaylee and Tyler were there too so it was a fun time (with some fighting). 

Thankfully there was a nap before Lexy, Marlee and I went to the grand opening of the Nampa Hastings.  After browsing for awhile, it was time to drop off TJ and the fruit/veggies at home.  Then a mad dash to retrieve Kaylee and Tyler for a night at the movies.  Fast Five was ok but the original is best.

Thankfully today has been a veg out day.  Trying to recover from being sick and the crazy day yesterday. How wonderful it is.  I have caught up on my blog-stalking, emails, Facebook, and recorded movies. 

Nearly killed me...

So I have been feeling awful for the past week.  A small cough developed on Monday and Tuesday it was bad.  Wednesday I woke up and felt 1,000x worse.  I stayed home from work and went to the Dr.  I had coughed so much my side muscles were hurt!!  I was diagnosed with a sinus infection and acute bronchitus.  So I was perscribed an inhaler and antibiotics...at a cost of $54!!  OUCH!!  I was ready to forget that and just stick to coughing.  But thanks heavens the medicine is working.  I still have a cough but it is gradually getting better. 

It did suck because it has put the school testing on hold for a little bit but this week it is a must. 

I hate to be a cliche...

but I have turned into a crazy emotional girl recently. I could cry just about anything.  I think there are alot of factors contributing to this current states I am in so I am going to set them free by voicing them. I haven't been blogging as much as I should so I have enteralized alot.  Interalizing is very bad for me.  I let things fester and it makes me despressed and grumpy.  (Oh by the way, pardon any bad spelling, grammar, etc because I am typing with my eyes closed - the bright screen is hurting my tired, puffy, red crieded out eyes--plus I have tired and I have to get up at 5 tomorrow too).

So  major factor in contributing to this emotion states is I am flat out tired. I have been getting up at 5 each day adn working my butt off at work each day.  i was recently promoted to a new position.  I work on a special customer servcie team that handles Starbucks (yes the evil coffee chain) deliveries.  I don't do anything else besides schedule pick up, deliveries, and monitor Starbucks freight.  It is a huge account for us.  HUGE!!  I want to succeed so I have been putting out 110% everyday.  I haven't had to learn/be trained in 5 years so this is a new processes for me.  I am so focused on doing well I just wear out my brain.  When I come home I really wan to collapse into bed and never leave but I still have to spend time with TJ, eat, talk to my parents and try to unwind a little.  I have dreamt about Starbukcs on multiple occassions.  It is getting better now thata I have been at the job for a month but I am still tired.  

But on a positive note it is that much closer until I am in Atlanta.  A working vacation.  i am really excited for it. 

Another problem is I haven't cried in awhile.  I am really cried.  I need to have the release.  I laughed alot today which cracked the dam because laughing is just a tiny tiny space away from crying. 


But there are few things that I want to cry over but I haven't permitted myself. 
1. being a old maid.  Chalk it up to being 27, signle and childless and close to Mothers Day it jst seems that my heart is calling out for a child but it isn't meant o be yet.  It doesn't help that 10,000 people are pregnant, recently had a baby, or about to pop.  I swear with inthe group of people I know and how small it is there must be 12-15 women.  It sucks. 

(but I can hear th raindrop of the ceiling and it makes me smile)

2. It is near Memorial Day.  I have such a deep love of our country.  I know it is the greatest place on Earth and has been chosen by God to play vital role.  I know that our Founding Fathers were divinely inspired.  They Constitution and Declaration of Indpendence are some of the most importanta documents in the world.  But knowing these things has caused me a great deal of fear.  With the current government, and the apathy of many of the citizens, our rights and freedoms that many fought to establish and perserve are in jeopardy.  i believe it is time for Americans to turn back to God, Our Creator.  That unless that happens, we will be destroyed and everything that we hold scared will be taken away. 

The love for our military will never falter or waiver.  Because of the service of millions in our armed forces so many injustices have been corrected, lives perserved, catastrophies avererted.  These have comes at a great cost of human life thourghout the centuries.  I know that many today perceive the military as an awful thing.  They blame the military for wars they don't support or engagements we shouldn't be in. However, the military are simpy following the orders.  i got into a debate with a coworker once about Memorial Day.  he thought it was a time to celebrate the Iraq war adn the President he didn't support.  As far as I know, there is no established holiday celebrating an war.  We recognize days of great importance (like Pearl Harbor) but that is different.  That is celebrating an anniversary...but anyway... I simple reminded my cowroker that Memorial Day is not about the war, or what county we are fighting in, or whether the President if a R/D.  It is about the soldier.  Each individual in our military and recognizing the past, present, and future sacrifices that have been made.  It is about the millions of faces that I will never see in this liftime and will never have the oppurtunity to say Thank You for doing what I was too afriad to do.  i can't explain it anymore.  All I can say is when I hear that National Anthem (sung properly and correct lyrics) that it brings tears to my ears and makes my heart swell.  That when I see a flag being burned or mistreated that I want to snatch it away and yell "DON"T YOU KNOW WHAT HAS BEEN SACRAFICED FOR YOU?!?!  WHAT LIVES HAVE BEEN LOST THAT ALLOW YOU THE FREEDOM TO BURN THE FLAG?!?!" Just being you can doesn't mean you should.

3. I turned 27.  That isn't old (but it isn't young either).  But What makes it so difficult is the reminder that Gma Summers is in heaven.  Gma died of cancer 10 years go on April 5...which is my birthday.  I was young so I didn't know Gma was sick.  Whenever we visited, I remember in good health and what love radiated from her.  I remember Lucky Charms and homemade pickles.  The old rotary phone and the Family Circle cominc books.  The way she smelled and St Ives soap.  the pink and blue bathroom.  The house vests she would wear and the coocoo clock.  The scary basement and the game kerplunk. And the lilac trees.  Oh what beautiful trees they were.  Two stores tall adn smelled divine!When I see my Mom I can see Gma.  i know I have had yen year sto grieve but it doesn't seem to be getting easier.

I remember that Mom had to be gone for a week or two and would mis my birthday because Gma and Mom were going to Arizon to see Uncle Darl.  I remember all the food the Relief Society brought over.  I remember the two birthday cakes I received.  The best cake was chocolate with pink sprinkles.  I cant remember what day Mom made it home.  i remember sitting at the ktchen table and it was sunny outside.  We were still living in Boise.  i reember she came through the front door.  She was halfway throug hthe kitchen I remember looking at her from the table.  I saw her start to cry and I ran to hug her.  That is what I remember.  After that I breifly recall collecting some things to keep but I don't remember the service or what happened after that.  I remember visiting Gpa Summers after she had passed and how I would cry each time we left. 

I don't know why it can be soo hard.  Last birthday I was fine.  This birthday i am falling apart.  I think it is because I wished for what could've been.  I don't know really.  All I know is that it is difficult. 

My eyes are nearly swollen shut.  I had better put this to rest before I break something.  Hopefully everything has been purged so tomorrow (or shall I say today) is Race for the Cure.  This year it will be all of us sisters and my mom.  Expect pictures to be posted on Sunday. I am excited for th girls day out but I had better get some rest because the alarm will be going off at 5 which is in a few hours. 

and I am content.  I am working on being happy but I am having a little setback.  no need to worry about me.  I will survive...I will survive hey hey!! (Insert rest of Gloria Gaynors song here).  :)

Leading Lady

I was watching The Holiday (which I love Kate Winslet..she is great) the other night.  I love the Kate Winslet story and fast forward through most. I feel like she is playing me in the begining.  Anyway, in my semi-conscience state I caught this line:

"You're supposed to be the leading lady of your own life, for god's sake! Arthur, I've been going to a therapist for three years, and she's never explained anything to me that well. That was brilliant. Brutal, but brilliant."

You can read the full exchange here.


But I thought that is my problem.  I don't treat myself like the leading lady.  I think I am the best friend!!  But no more.  This is the year for me.  I was speaking to a sister and she said this will be my year.  And for the first time in a long time I actually agree.  Normally I would just brush that off but I said "I think so too!!"  Postitive step!!  I am improving in my.....mental image..or believing in oppurtunities.  I guess I am just becoming more positive about myself.

YEAH!! 

When a decision is necessary, I have removed the factor of "What will my family think".  I value their opinion but it will no longer be THE deciding factor of what I do.  I have a car. It's paid off.  But as soon as I have enough, I am going to trade in the car and get my SUV.  I love my car but every time I drive it I keep wishing for the SUV.  I even looked up the trade in/resell value of my car.  $3000 trade in and $5000 resell. I think I am just going to trade in and save hassell of trying to resell it and then find a SUV after it has sold.  I can already hear what my parents will say but that is ok.  I am made the decision and I am ok with that. 

Plus school is in the works.  I just need to get in my transcripts and then register for class!! Thankfully I have adjusted to saving money rather than spend it so my savings is larger than I excepted!!  I can pay for class without financial aide!!  But to be honest, I have gone on some shopping sprees but have kept what I spent less than what I had budgetted for. 

I have decided to go on a road trip over Memorial Day weekend.  I have a 5 day weekend.  I may just drive to eastern Idaho to visit Grandma but I will be taking the scenic route. I may swing up to Sun Valley and then over.  Who knows.  I am just ready for a small adventure. 

To make it even more exciting, I get to go to Atlanta, GA for a week, June 13-18. I won a contest at work and it is an expenses paid trip!!  We land in Atlanta around 2pm and get the afternoon/evening to ourselves.  Tues/Wed/Thurs we are visiting corporate offices and seeing how they operate. Thursday we even get to go to a Atlanta Braves and New York Mets baseball game!!  WOOHOO!!  Plus they are trying to work in a nice dinner with VP's and possibly the president!!  How exciting will that be!! 

For the first time in a long time, I am happy to be me!!

hate to break the news...

but I am not going to do the major post to catch up on everything that has happened.  you have survived without the pictures and details this long, you can surivie forever without knowing them.

but what you cannot surive not knowing is....

I am content.  That has been a feeling that has eluded me for a long time.  but today I am content.  job is going great...did you hear that I got a promotion?...i just worked extra hard at the gym today...I am going to dinner with the girls to celebrate (YUMMERS for Mexican food)!!

thought I would just share... :)

HANDBOOK 2011

Health:
1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy
5. Make time to pray.
6. Play more games
7. Read more books than you did in 2010 .
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day
9. Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk daily -- and while you walk, smile!!

Personality:
11. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Society:
25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 and under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least 3 people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:
32. Do the right thing!
33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. GOD heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change..
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come..
38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Inner most is always happy. So... be happy.

Mom forwarded me this handbook in an email.  I really liked it so I thought I would share.

Resolution...

I have found my New Years Resolution. Simply put:

Before you quite, try!!

uhoh!! my list is gone!!

I have created a 101 things to do in 1001 days list.  I went to the webiste to review and see what I can check off and what I can start.  To my shock, the list is gone!!  The page talks about being down becuase of heavy traffic and wont be back up because the webmaster is India with only a backpack and an Ipad. 

I am not digging through old posts and papers trying to find it!!  Keep your fingers crossed i will find it so I don't have to start over!

Here's to new beginings..

So there are a millions thoughts going through my brain. A new year has begun.  The chapter titled 2010 is closed and the page has turned.  It is both thrilling and terrifying.

I really can't find the words to express what I am feeling so I will say that I do not have any resolutions.  I am simplying resolving to try. It will be a success as long as I have tried.  The outcome will not matter.

So what I am going to try to do is 1) learn to say no, 2) not care what others think of me, 3) read the Bible all the way through, and 4) be healthy.

shoveling snow...

TJ was covered in snow because he was helping me shovel.

Mission accomplished

so THANKFUL for my boots!!  They saved my toesies!

Remember the snow I talked about earlier? Well living alone does have it's drawbacks that there is no one else to help shovel the snow. Each time it snows, I am out there shovel in hand moving the snow.  I have to shovel my front walk and my neighbors.  I park under the portico and that is around the corner and in front of my neighbors front door.  I really don't want to shovel their front walk abut have to if I don't want to walk through piles of snow in my business shoes.  Then I feel bad for clearing one neighbors but not the rest so I am out there even longer cleaning everyones side walk.

The one day I wasn't there and figure one of the three families would be considerate and shovel the sidewalks for me, NOBODY DOES IT!!  It is agravating!!  I was petty and spiteful because I dumped a shovel full of snow inbetween 2 neighbors cars so they have to walk through the snow to get to the drivers door.  Childish of me I know but it made me feel better.  :)

slipper season

SO SO SO HAPPY that it is SLIPPER SEASON!!
My mom gave me these pair. 
Unfortunately, my stock has diminished and I only have
2 pairs left.  Can't wait for after Christmas clearance so
I can stock up more pairs!!